ok. i am not whining about my band... i am just trying to come to terms with what is a new eperience for me. really, i am. so recently, there have been a couple of instances that have just really been akward. at the monday night bike ride, somebody introduced themself to me and asked what my name was. i told her geoff, and johnny, interjected, "you know, from defiance, ohio", which i think everybody took as a joke, but i would be horrified if they didn't. but just the fact that someone could make that joke, and that people could take it seriously is really frightening. i guess ultimately people who i spend a lot of time with me will be able to decide for themselves whether i have some stupid rock-star attitude or not, and i shouldn't really worry about random kids, but it always hurts to think that people might have misconceptions about you. maybe it's because you suspect that they might not be misconceptions at all, which is scary, but i'm pretty sure is not the case.
weird event two. this kid sean put out a fanzine with an interview with us. he hounded us for weeks for the interview, and i was happy to do it. however, his enthusiasm for it was so intense, its still really akward. he dropped off some of the zines the other day, and it's really hard because it's a bi-weekly zine so it's basically just our interview. i guess that's cool, and the format and all, i'm just afraid of seeming self-agrandizing. also, it's not that the interview is bad, but it's definitely not how i would interview myself, and i guess it's strange to see someone else's representation of you displayed so publicly. it can't help but feel like losing control.
weird event three. i was at a party last night and people started playing the cd. it's really surreal to hear something you've made being played at a party. but more than that some kid started talking to me about the band. will and ryan and i used to talk about the band all the time when we first started, and maybe that wasn't so good, but at least it was with kids who were are close friends and understood that the band was just a big part of our lives. but now i talk to kids who only know me through the band and it's hard because i like talking about the band, but since i don't know these kids, it seems like it's all i have to talk about and i'm really worried that people are like "gee he talks about his band alot".
i'll deal.
posted by geoff on 4/26/2003 11:25:49 AM
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posted by geoff on 4/22/2003 12:44:16 PM
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this weekend has been really fun, and with a lot of kids out of town, i didn't have such grand expectations. but it's been awesome. primarily because i've gotten to spend time with people who are close to me, or who have been really supportive of me, but that i've kind of neglected.
on friday, i called steven to see what was going on, and he said that becca was planning on going to the strike anywhere show at the newport (big, dumb concert hall across from campus) and that he was going to sneak in. i asked if i could come along, and he said it was no problem. we hung out for a little bit and becca told us about the vegan potluck that she was having next weekend which was exciting. we even made a flyer for it. so after a little while, we headed over to the concert hall. the lines were huge, the show had sold out, it was crazy. tons of kids just rabid for afi. we didn't have to spend much effort sneaking in after all, as a friend helped us get in really easily. strike anywhere sounded good, and they played with energy, but in a hall that size, it just seemed hollow. the kids were kind of ambivilant to the whole thing which i thought was disappointing because i like strike anywhere, and i think their lyrics are really good and intelligent. the kids where so out of it that after the show, when becca and her friend were hanging out at the merch table with the roadie for strike anywhere, a bunch of kids assumed that her friend was in the band just because he was wearing tight jeans and had that floppy indie-rocker haircut. hilarious.
the explosion was just lame. the music is tolerable, i guess, but the guys just come off as such bro-dogs. i couldn't handle it. the whole set exhuded sleaze.
i have always thought afi was pretty ok. i saw them a couple of times at krazyfest and had a good time, but i never fealt any kind of connection with their music. i thought a lot of the lyrics were pretty simplistic or ambiguous and their music was getting more and more typical. so, seeing kids just rabid for them was crazy. and you had a real mix of the hipster hardcore kids and the gothed up kids. it was strange. the best comment i heard all night was, "davey's [the singer for afi] all queer and fem, but he's totally badass at the same time". classic. but not paying and being detached from the whole experience worked out really well in the end as watching them was just like watching some ridiculous arena rock band and the sheer over-the-topness made it fun.
after we got tired of watching afi, steven, brett, and i went to the party at derek and emmet's house. shannon and katie's band played their first show and i liked it a lot. it was fun and pretty interesting. then some metal band played and i liked them a lot more than i did the last time i saw them. i got to say hi to matt from cincinatti, and jamie and eric luck stopped by which was cool. after the metal band, brett and i walked home while stephen stayed to drink and mingle.
yesterday i was going to help dave shoot his self-portrait video for art school, but then i realized that everybody was out of town so i should help with food not bombs. i went to jonnies and sort of hung out with bz and justin before we all decided that there wasn't enough interest/people to do fnb. this sucked, but oh well. i went to make flyers for jessika dissaster's midwest zine fest. after that, i rounded up jonnie, justin, and kevey to go play "punk rock soccer".
we had always played soccer when the weather got nice, but recently there were 100s of flyers up for "punk rock soccer" and i had no idea who the kids were who were doing it. we got there, and of course the punks were late. gabe came, but other than that, i knew none of the other kids. still, it was really fun and we played punks vs. pickup kids against a few soccer jocks, and some mexicans. it was fun, and even though the game was pretty intense only a few guys took things too seriously.
after the game i was pretty warn out, but we stopped by steven's work and he gave us the hook-up so at least we had a way to reload. i talked to kevey for a while and then headed home. when i got home, i talked to mandy for a long while. this was rad, because mandy really likes to talk and i feel like i'm often dismissive because i'm often running late to somewhere or really not in the mood to talk. but that night, there was nothing better to sit on the couch and chat with my roommate. my friends all consider her the "good roommate" or "the fun roommate" and i admit that she's a pretty interesting person who has a perspective that i might not totally agree with but that is at least enlightening.
posted by geoff on 4/20/2003 12:34:16 PM
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the weather is nice consistently now and everybody around, myself included, seems to be in a better mood. i ride my bike all over town and don't hate it because my fingers no longer feel as if they will have to be amputated due to frostbite. there have been soccer games and four square games, late night bike rides and hanging out on the porch at shows. it's a good season after a long, cold winter. oh yeah, and it seems like i have a crush on just about everybody.
it's been a while since i'd acknowledge that i was struck by a proper crush, but now, i'm awash with a bunch. there's the didn't know it was a crush until someone mentioned something and you found yourself suddenly blushing, the impressed/intrigued with someone crush, the sort of known a person for a while but suddenly you find yourself extra excited when you hear they're going to be somewhere, and on and on and on ... it's confusing and stupid and nice all at once.
the part i don't like about having a crush on somebody is that there always feels as if there's something unfair about it. like i have certain feelings about a person but they don't even know about it. i have this curiosity about them, wondering what they think about, wondering how they'd react to things, their oppinions, and then into the trouble regions, what they think of me or even what it would be like making out with them. so these thoughts start running through my head and it just feels like it's violating some implicit trust. like they're just having a normal interaction with me and i'm thinking about it with an added layer of confusion and complexity. i don't like it. i guess maybe everybody feels this way sometimes. i just wish i could know for sure so i wouldn't feel so creepy.
the other thing is, i'm not so sure i know how to properly have a crush. i know that when i was younger, i was under the impression, and i'll warn you that this is ridiculous, that a crush either ended in some serious relationship, being summarily rejected, or just being left in a state of agonizing confusion. pretty stupid. i just hope that maybe now that i'm older and wiser i can appreciate a crush for itself and freak out about what it's going to turn into. i just want to enjoy being really excited about people and that's it.
ok. enough of that nonsense. now i can get back to really enjoying the nice weather. there's soccer to be played and shows to sneak into.
posted by geoff on 4/20/2003 12:03:43 PM
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